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What do I want to do now?

Hi Chip!

I love the principle of doing what feels good / doing what feels like relief a lot. When I first heard about this last year I thought “YES! This is how I want to live my life from now on!”.

However it doesn’t seem to work for me as I had hoped. Regularly I get into situations where I got free time and want to decide what to do next. I ask myself the question “What would feel good or feel like relief now?” – And then the answer is just blank.

In these situations I just don’t know what I would really want to do with my time. So I feel as if I only have two options: To do nothing and be super bored, or to distract myself (kill time) with something that feels okay to do but that doesn’t really excite me much. I always do the latter because the idea of doing nothing/being bored just feels worse…

It is frustrating to me because I know that there must be something there that I would really like to do but I am blind to seeing it and because of that I end up wasting my time with something else.

Luckily there are also moments where I do get an inspiration of something that I would like to do. But they are much rarer than I would like. So how can I receive more regular answers when I ask myself “What do I want to do now”?

This is very similar to a more common question, “what do I do when there is no inspired action to take?” The answer, of course, is to do nothing—or better yet, do something fun. The reason that you are not inspired, is that there is no action to take at that time. If you are wanting something, the Universe is rearranging itself to bring it to you. But you may not be aligned with having it right now.

Think of it like catching a bus. It does no good to go to the bus stop 5 hours before it departs. But there is a right time that will get you to the bus stop at the best time for boarding and that will give you the best bus ride experience possible. You will be inspired at the right time if you expect the inspiration.

But I don’t think that the above scenario is the case with you.

The contrast you are experiencing looks like this. You find yourself with time on your hands, but nothing excites you. The thing about contrast is that 89-91% of the time what the contrast is about is the most obvious thing.

In this case, you want something to get excited about.

But you’re not looking for the next release of Smash Brothers, you are looking for something more pervasive, something that gets you so revved up that there is no spare time. You want to dive into it the second your “have-to’s” are done.

Now this can be a “life-purpose,” an adventure, a hobby, or a quest to build and release self-replicating nanobots that “eat” GMO crops and turn them into organic fertilizer. It really doesn’t matter. It is up to you to choose what it is that will fire your rockets.

Now you probably have some sort of “sensibility” template that will create some contrast as soon as you start exploring the possibilities. “I don’t know what to do.” is the perfect avoidance mechanism to avoid this contrast.

Using an absurd example: If you really wanted to fly to the moon, you might get a lot of contrast stating that you can’t afford a rocket ship and if you could you couldn’t do the math to plot the trajectory, and you get claustrophobic in space suits. Saying “I don’t know what to do” in the quiet times avoids these stirring up these conflicting thoughts.

As does, “I really don’t have anything I’m passionate about that I want to do.”

But you do have the desire to have that kind of purpose and passion, no?

You can tell, because your vibration is at boredom. If you keep choosing what feels better, excitement and passion are coming very soon.

So you just have to choose what it is you want to do. You can’t get it wrong, but you can delay the having of it.

My suggestion is to brainstorm a list of things you might like to do. Don’t be sensible. Put down things that are exciting. Put down things you that stretch you. Put down thing you think are impossible. Feel the vibration of these things. (Hint: it is possible that the vibration of things you think are impossible can be found in things you believe you can have.)

If you are comfortable with asking your guides for help, ask them to help you think of things for your list.

Once you have decide on an endeavor or two, go back to following what feels better. Now, if nothing comes up, you know you are just waiting for a bus, and there is nothing to do right now. You can play Smash Brothers, kill time, and enjoyed it.

Contrast is likely to arise. This will point out the thoughts you hold that run counter to what you want to do. Once again, simply choose thoughts that feel better and navigating the contrast will be easy—and it gets easier the more you do it.

This is something you are ready for.

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Chip

(c)2014 Chip Engelmann

What Color is My Bear-assed Career?

When my desires aren’t being manifested quickly enough (specifically my career at this point), there are partial manifestations here and there tho…what do you suggest me to do? Should I focus more intensely, distract myself with things that make me happy, or follow the “go general” technique by Abraham?

Let’s start with a problem:

You travel in a straight line exactly one mile south. You turn west and travel exactly one mile. You turn north and travel exactly one mile bringing you back to your starting point. Sitting on the exact spot you left is a bear. What color is the bear?

Your career is this bear. You don’t know what color it is but you wish it would get off it’s fat ass and get moving. Maybe if you hang some salmon out in front of it it will move, I mean, bears like salmon, right? You can get canned salmon at the grocery store, or that GMO stuff at the deli. I wonder which would work better.

We live in a society that values problem solving. We are taught that in order to get anything you have to set it up as a problem.

You define the problem:

  • My career is sitting on it’s fat ass.

You state what you know to be true:

  • I have experience in shopping.
  • I am educated in the varieties of salmon.
  • The market for GMO salmon is currently down.
  • Bears smell bad and shed.
  • No one is hiring people who can’t move a bear.

And you isolate variables:

  • X=what I have to do to get this bear moving.

When you set your career up as a problem to be solved, guess what you get? That’s right, you get a problem. It is the way we have been taught to deal with life. You isolate a problem and go about solving it.

So what would life look like if it wasn’t a problem to be solved? What if it was already perfect? What if what you have right now is exactly what you want.

Take a second and look around you. Everything you see, smell, taste, and imagine is your creation. The part that might be hard to comprehend is that it is exactly what you want it to be. It is a perfect match to you vibrationally.

But what about your fat-assed career?

There are parts of the world you created, even though it is perfect match to what you want not, that you don’t like and want to change. Your career is one of them. You simply have conflicting thoughts and that conflict shows up in the form of contrast. Typically what is happening is you’re protecting yourself from what you think the change you want to make means.

If I have a career, it means I won’t have as much time to spend with the kids.

I really don’t want to work at all. I’m just doing it for the money.

If I get money without working I’m a leach. So I need a career.

I need a career to be somebody.

Which brings up another point. The vibration of career and the vibration of money are not related. They appear to be related because of the meaning we have given it. But it is a no pain-no gain myth. Career in the LOA sense of the word is something that you want to do because you want to do it. If money were not involved, you would do it for fun.

Money can come to you through an infinite number of channels. It does not have to be limited to work, welfare and charity.

So when you say you want your career manifest quicker, are you wanting to expand the joy of doing what you love, or do you really want the money you think it will bring? The answer can be both.

So you know that your creation is perfect and now you want to experience more. This comes through an interconnected process of desire-contrast-allowing-alignment. (See Communion of Light, Correlating Wealth)

Let’s assume for a moment that what you really want is money not career. The same principles apply no matter what you want. The first step is to feel what it would be like to have that money. You increase your desire. Then let it go. It will either manifest or contrast will arise. Again the contrast is just there to serve you by pointing out your conflicting thoughts. Everything in your life, every person you meet is here to serve you. Some serve you by helping you define what it is you don’t want.

If you let the contrast be your ally, and allow it to be what it is, it will show you what thought is running counter to what you want. Usually, that thought is one you put in place to protect you. If you feel that the thought no longer serves you (hint: if it feels bad it doesn’t) you can replace it with one that feels more in alignment with what you are wanting.

You then let it be what it is and the money you want will either manifest or contrast will arise. Rinse and repeat.

You see, you are not doing anything wrong and you never have. There is no problem so there is no problem to solve. You only have what you are creating and how you want it to change. Let the Universe sort out how. You just have to allow it to happen and make decisions about what you want when contrast arises. Personally, I would choose to go with the thoughts that feel better or like relief. If the thought doesn’t feel good, I’d drop it like it was a bag of alligator snot.

Most of all, be easy on yourself. Dropping the idea of problem solving is a new concept and your life has been about solving problems since you were very young. It is only natural that you will try to figure out what you are doing right and what you are doing wrong. But you can’t get it wrong.

It is all about starting right here right now, and doing what feels better (or like relief). And then doing it again.

Like how you felt when you decided to ask your question.

Keep doing that.

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As some of you already know, I have created a new program to make it easier for some people to engage in sessions with me. I call it, “Pay What You Want Thursdays.” And that is how it works. You have a session. Then you pay what you want. You can find out more here.

Chip

(c)2014 Chip Engelmann

You vs. Your Facade

You came into this life as you, the real you with the good vibes and innocent eyes and gurgling cooing that make all babies adorable. You could manifest anything you wanted or needed merely by letting loose a wail that cringed the nerves of all adults within earshot.

Then you grew up.

When you learned to talk, you started getting instruction about how life worked and what you needed to do to fit in. Often times, what others wanted you to do, to fit in, to make them feel better, ran counter to what your emotional compass was telling you was not in your best interest.

Gradually you learned to ignore your emotions and accept what other people were telling you about the way things are. It wasn’t easy because you knew you were ignoring what was true for you. So you started to pretend you were the way others wanted you to be. You created a facade, a face you showed the world, and you pushed you, the real you, to the background.

And as you moved more deeply into the facade you were creating, you increased the distance between you and your facade. You chose your facade as the right path and rejected the real you. Obviously the real you was flawed, because it doesn’t match the facade you wear in society. So it is quite natural to be ashamed of the real you.

The shame never goes away. It rides like a blanket over everything, so constant so pervasive that it seems like it is just the way life is. It becomes invisible. But we feel it and seek relief in the cookie jar or at the gym or in our 70 hour a week job or compulsive volunteer work.

And we have created a balance. We have manifested a perfect world that takes into account our facade. And this world protects us from what we perceive as our imperfection—who we really are.

The problem comes in when what we want comes from who we really are. We want health, we want wealth, and we want love. All of these desires come from who we are.

We want money. Our facade knows that rich people are evil and only get rich on the backs of the poor. It knows that who we are is flawed, and so to protect ourselves from ourselves, we do everything but manifest money.

Here’s the rub. We are master manifestors. We created the world around us. We don’t like some of our creation, but we have purpose in what we have created. We are protecting ourselves from who we think we are.

We have created the world exactly the way we want it.

But once you have identified the facade you have created, you can start to change it. You change it by finding thoughts that feel better.

Here’s an exercise: Take a topic like money, health, or love and write down on a sheet of paper all the ideas that come to mind about that topic.

Now, draw two circles. In one write the word “Me”, and in the other write “My Facade.” Take each of the ideas you had about your topic and use your emotional guidance system to decide whether that idea comes from you or your facade. Some are obvious, but some might not be so. Say the difficult ones aloud. Notice how it pulls you. It will feel like relief to place it in one circle or the other.

When you are done, you will have a better understanding of the facade you have created. You will also see how you are protecting yourself from what you want.

Now you can change those ideas that don’t serve you with ones that feel better. And you can ask yourself that all important question, what do I want from here.

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As some of you already know, I have created a new program to make it easier for some people to engage in sessions with me. I call it, “Pay What You Want Thursdays.” And that is how it works. You have a session. Then you pay what you want. You can find out more here.

Chip

(c)2014 Chip Engelmann

The Best Way to Attract a Great Relationship

Chip,

Can you please speak on the best way to attract a great relationship? I feel like I’ve been trying forever, to no avail. (Maybe that’s my problem?)

Now I feel discouraged and like throwing in the towel on the whole matter. I know what feels good to me to visualize but I don’t know if that really exists in reality. Maybe I have to settle. Maybe I’m not allowed to really have it. Maybe I have to learn a whole bunch of lessons first before it comes along. I just don’t know. I’m confused and don’t know how to sort it out.

My guess is that the idea of “throwing in the towel” feels like relief. But you still want the relationship.

Your intuition was talking pretty loudly to you when you wrote this, wasn’t it? You are trying to manage the creation of this relationship because you think if you don’t do something, it isn’t going to happen.

I’ve got news for you. Your intuition is telling you, “It’s done. You have that relationship. You’ve created it. Let it come to you.”

Think of it like ordering a book from Amazon. You placed the order, now you just have to wait the 5-8 working days for it to arrive. The last thing you would do is notice on day three that it isn’t there yet and order the book again. But that is what we do when we try to make it happen. We notice that we don’t have it yet, and when we do, the Universe knocks the book off the UPS conveyer belt and your package is delayed. Then after you forget about it, some janitor finds the book and puts it back on the belt.

Think of this new dream relationship in the same way you would think of the book you ordered from Amazon. If you knew in uncertain terms that your person was coming, how would you be acting? Would you be going out and enjoying other people’s company—not intending to get serious, but hey, company at movies is fun? Dancing is fun. Flirting is fun. Eating out is fun. Would you enjoy benefits?

Would you spend time preparing your space for a new person, or would you be organizing your stuff so that you got rid of the things that you wouldn’t want to move?

If it were me, I would say, “Now that I have my relationship, what can I do to best celebrate being ‘single’ before the person shows up?”

Undoubtedly, you will experience some contrast. The relationship you are asking for is a different vibration than the vibration you currently hold. The contrast that comes up is merely pointing out thoughts you are thinking that are delaying your person’s arrival. Listen to what they are saying. Often it is as simple as making a turning it around: “Not allowed to have it? How interesting. Of course, I can have it. I can have anything I want.” Or, “Maybe I have to learn a bunch of lessons. Ha ha. As if I could get it wrong!”

This can be very easy. The contrast is merely giving you the opportunity to replace unaligned thoughts.

Relax. Enjoy yourself while the “package” is coming. Stay home or go out as you are inspired to do. This relationship is a done deal.

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This question arrived just as I was finishing the previous one. As a general rule, I like to answer questions promptly. But I’m sure there will be times that for one reason or another, it might be delayed. But don’t be surprised when questions get posted on the same day as another question.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

Creating Our Universe While Blending Reality with Others

If we are all so depthfully creators of our own universe, why is it that we all even exist in the same plane in the first place? If no human interaction was meaningful beyond what we create in our own head, what’s the point of anything?

The implication of your question is that it is logically impossible to create your own reality in its entirety and still have interaction with other people.

The truth is that we do, in fact, create our reality in its entirety and we blend reality with others through our vibrations.

We are dynamic energetic beings who are maintain the illusion of being separated from our Higher Self to experience the contrast of being physically-focused. But we are more that our physical bodies, we are the universe of our thoughts. These thoughts are what create our reality. We give birth to an endless stream of thoughts and from this stream of thoughts we decide what is real and assign meaning.

We create our experiences from what we expect and what we believe to be true. These beliefs and expectations are unique to each of us. Like all thoughts, they are energy and have a specific energetic vibration.

These thoughts through vibration, call forth others who have thoughts of similar vibration. You attract people with similar financial situations in one part of your life, people with similar romantic interests in another area of your life, and people who share you hobbies and pastimes in another area of your life. You are multidimensional so you call forth a multitude of people.

But you are completely different from everyone else. Your thoughts are based upon your experiences no one else has a clue what you are thinking. Likewise, you have no clue what anyone else is thinking.

So when you blend reality with someone else, what you are doing is projecting what you think the relationship means onto this person. In essence, they become a reflection of who you are. Like you they are multidimensional, and you are seeing only this small piece of them, and seeing that through the lens of your own experiences. You see this blending in one way and they see it in another way completely.

An example might be that you blend a vibration of a world in which governments are oppressive. To you that oppression might mean governments passing laws that relegate people to the role of consumers of products we don’t want to boost corporate sales, while the other person sees government oppression as low flying helicopters blasting techo music.

So you create your own world, and the blending you do with others is a reflection back to you of your creation. That is not to say that this interaction cannot be pleasurable or stimulating or fulfilling, or irritating. They can be all that and more. But this relationship is your version of that person—not who they are.

Ultimately, you create the universe of your thoughts in its entirety.

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Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

The “Be Happy” Trap

Hi Chip,

Why does Abraham spend soooooo much time preaching to feel happy and all else follow, when it doesn’t seem to work?

Although I studied the Teachings of Abraham extensively 5-6 years ago, I have not done more than watch an occasional YouTube video since, so bear with me.

All creation follows roughly the same method. How you create a meal is no different than creating a wad of cash. You feel contrast, you ramp up your desire, you notice your alignment, and you allow it to come into being. If you needed to be happy to get your food, there would be a lot of hungry people out there.

If you are happy, however, the alignment and allowing part flow a little more smoothly.

But there are a few built-in traps to thinking that the path to getting what you want is to be happy.

The first is that most people create an a mental if-then statement.

If I become happy, then I get get what I want.

If this is postulated, then what you want, say a wad of cash, gets relegated to the future, and happiness is a required stepping stone. What happens is we shift our attention from what we want to becoming happy. In fact, happiness and a wad of cash are unrelated topics with different vibrations.

To complicate things even further, even though we are told repeatedly that you shouldn’t wait until you have money to be happy, a lot of people look at money as a way to solve problems. And we think:

When I get that wad of cash, I can be happy.

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(or I can relax and be happy).

So now we’ve created a loop. You can’t get money without being happy, but you can’t be happy until you get the money.

The second trap involves contrast.

We create our reality through, our thoughts, expectations and beliefs. When we consciously create, we are setting forth an intention to manifest what we want. Most of the time when we do this it manifests very quickly. If we want an ice cream cone we get into a car and go get it.

But if we want something that we notice is not in our experience, like a large wad of cash, then when we set our intention, we notice contrasting or bad feeling emotions arise. This the Universe showing us he thoughts we hold that run counter to what we want.

For example we might want to create:

I want a wad of cash.

And then you might think out of habit from our cultural template:

Rich people are evil.

I don’t want to be evil.

I don’t want a wad of cash.

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So now you have two conflicting thoughts:

I want a wad of cash.

I don’t want a wad of cash.

And you feel it as contrast.

The contrast you experience is there to serve you. It tells you how far the thought or belief you have is from where you want it to be. Ideally, you just experience the emotion and let it point out the thought or belief so you can change it. In this case, you can reverse the idea that rich people are evil and postulate what you would rather have instead.

I am a magnificent being or light and love and no amount of money can change that.

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But if we are holding the idea that we need to we happy, then what we do is smooth over the contrast and think happy thoughts. The more we do this, the more contrast we create, the more we smooth it over, the more contrast we create, the more we smooth it over until we just want to grab a hammer and play Whack-a-mole with our Abraham CDs.

We hold to the idea that we need to be happy, but we notice we don’t have money and contrast arises. So we think happy thoughts and we feel worse.

You simply cannot create anything if you take contrast out of the equation.

But Abraham is still right. Manifesting is easier if you are happy. But they are also right when they say that happy is too far a stretch for most people. They are also right when they talk about contrast being part of the manifestation process. If you cherry pick the “be happy” part out of all the things they say, it might not turn out like you expect.

A third trap that arises from the idea that you need to become happy to get what you want is that it feeds into the cultural template that you have to do something to get what you want. I would postulate that a primary reason the Abraham says to be happy is because that a happy person is in an extreme state of allowing. However, a person trying to be happy is doing not allowing. Certainly, trying to be happy in the midst of contrast is in their words, “upstream.” You can tell by the resistance you feel when you try to push through the contrast to get to happy. What actually feels like relief at this point is to feel the contrast.

My suggestion is to skip the whole “be happy” idea. Instead, follow the thought that feels better than where you are, the thought that feels like relief. Following the thought that feels better is always the fastest way to get to what you really want. If you make following the thought that feels better a habit, the side effect is that you will become happy.

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I’d like to say a very special THANK YOU to Frank Butterfield for helping me navigate the delicious contrast of having a website that is not functioning properly. It has been a while since my last post.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

Q: What ‘Loopholes’ are keeping me from getting paid?

Hi Chip,

I’m still trying to get my head around putting the theory of LOA into practice in my life. I have been following my feelings and taking inspired action, but things aren’t working out for me in the way I expected. For example, I set up a counseling website (inspired, good feeling action) and got three clients. I got myself into a high vibration and responded to them, and felt really good about it. I got positive feedback from one client saying that I really touched and helped her, but none of the clients payed me for the service. I then noticed I had some more limiting beliefs about money, and worked on them, but still haven’t received payment. I feel like giving up. I am not sure what to do now.

I have read some more LOA material lately that suggests there are a few ‘loopholes’ that could be preventing me from getting what I want:

  1. I am not in a high enough vibration to be a match to what I want;
  2. What I think I want isn’t for my ‘highest good’;
  3. What I think I want isn’t really what I want.

So how do I tell which of the three ‘loopholes’ apply? I have done pretty well manifesting what I wanted in the past, as they were more ‘pedestrian’ things. Now I want to take it up a notch and really create the reality I desire, but every time I try it appears to fail spectacularly. Perhaps the contrast is serving me by giving me the motivation to ask this question!

I’d love to hear your perspective on this. Thank you.

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Well, my perspective is that you are doing everything right. Perhaps the most significant thing that is working for you is your emotional compass.

Let’s walk through what happened. You followed what felt better and set up a website. You got three clients who liked your work, but they didn’t pay you. You took that contrast, pivoted on it, and decided what you wanted instead. You want clients that pay you for your work.

This is working just as it should. The next step is to follow the thought or action that feels better or what feels like relief. What came up is more contrast, which sometimes is the path that feels better. This contrast is merely pointing out thoughts that are not aligned with you getting what you want. In this case, it is a cluster of thoughts that came to you in form of a cultural template.

In school you were taught to solve problems by examining the data and isolating the variables. In essence, you define the problem.

For example, you might be asked: find the pressure exerted on a one square-foot metal plate on the base of a dam at a depth of 250 feet below water-level.

You know that atmospheric pressure is 14.7 pounds per square inch at sea level and that you increase pressure at the rate of one atmosphere every 32 feet of depth. So, if you let x=the pressure on the plate, you just have to solve for x.

Now if you apply this problem-solving system to the problem of your clients not paying you, you take what you know to be true, and assign a variable. You know that you create your world through your thoughts and that each thought has a vibration. So if you are not getting the stuff you want, then your vibration and the thoughts you are thinking must be wrong. So x=wrong thoughts.

So now you have your assertion. Law of Attraction kicks in and brings you evidence to support your assertion. You manifested “the loopholes” as evidence that wrong thoughts are at play.

The thing is that it all felt like shit. You couldn’t tell one loophole from another vibrationally because they all felt like shit. Finally it felt so awful that you threw up you hands in disgust and you did the only thing you could do.

You gave up.

And that felt so much like relief.

And in this vibration of relief you had an inspired action that felt even more like relief: you wrote me an email.

You then poured all these emotions out onto a page and declared vibrationally, “I’m done with all this crap. Universe you sort this out.”

Again more relief.

You made the decision that you wanted paying clients and contrast that involved a “problem-solving” cluster of thoughts arose. You did this to show yourself that there is no problem to be solved. There is nothing wrong with you. Give up problem-solving and the Universe will sort this out for you.

You manifested me to reflect back to you the message your Higher Self is telling you.

You did everything perfectly. Your emotional compass led you right through this contrast. You now know what thoughts aren’t serving you.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are perfect just as you are. There is no problem to be solved. Everything you felt was perfect. Relax and let the Universe sort this out.

Now what do you want from here?

I took down the forum on my site because it was slowing the site down to a crawl. I’m in the process of moving to a new server to speed things up even more. I’ll try re-installing the forum once everything is set up. Thanks for your patience.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

Serendipity and the PLR

The path of least resistance (PLR) is that theoretical straight line between you and what you want. I say theoretical, because if you actually followed it, the time delay between wanting something and getting it would be Weeping Angel fast. (Don’t Blink.) I can’t even get close. I’m more of a follow-the-path-of-some-resistance-until-contrast-pokes-me-in-the-eye kind of guy. Another name for the PLR is the path of what feels better.

When people think about the creation process they tend to think of manifesting a single experience. Like, I want a bad-ass gaming computer that glows with blue lights inside the case and sounds like a drag racer when it lights up. When I think about getting it, I think about selling 25 widgets and a do-hicky and using the profits to buy the computer. But the Universe knows the totality of what you want to experience and brings everything you want along the path of least resistance with amazing synchronicity.

If you have been following my book/blog on the Whole Banana site you know that basically our house is on the market and when it sells we are moving to the frickin desert. If you read my previous blog post on this website, you know that I removed the words easy-peasy from my website header. What you might not know is that when I did, I was finally able to write the book I’ve working on. Actually I had to start from scratch because it was no longer a book on easy-peasy.

So this is where the Serendipity and the PLR part comes in. A very handsome non-physical ghost, Paul, once said to me, “Decide you can actually have what you actually want, and the Universe rearranges itself to bring it to you.” Like I said, this story begins when I dropped the words easy-peasy. It is now Life Surfer’s Law of Attraction Handbook.

I was really flying writing my new book and I hear a pufft like a power spike and my computer shuts down. I tried to restart it and I got the Bluescreen of Death right after the Windows Screen. I can only get a glimpse of what it says, but I keep seeing just the phrase, “hardware conflict.”

No naturally I tried to restart it about 50 times. I even left it so that it would repeatedly try on its own. I told you I followed the path of some resistance, right? I was mildly panicked but also excited that I would be getting my new bad-ass gaming computer. You see, if you are vibrationally aligned with the having of something, and what you have still works so you don’t take inspired action, well sometimes shit has to break.

Finally I gave up and finished the book on my Lappie.

So now the book is done, and I’m thinking I can’t wait to get it out because it is the best thing I’ve ever written. But half of it is on a dead computer and the other half is on a thumb drive. I called some friends and found a guy willing to let me hook my dead drive and external drive to his computer—just not for a few days because he is out of town.

It is okay that he is out of town, because my Lappie is portable and small and is perfect for writing in my remote garden under the maple and chatting on facebook, but doesn’t have the omph to format documents or manipulate graphics. So having the book in one place is only part of the situation.

But he has a “bare-bones” computer that has not been assembled that will. He is willing to trade that computer for a piece of basement rubble he has coveted and I was going to sell anyway. So when he gets back I can not only download the file, I can build a computer out of the parts from my dead one and his unassembled one. It’s not a bad-ass gaming computer but it will be bad-ass enough. And my 16-year-old son has just acquired the URL AutisticGamer.com and plans to start a video blog. He needs a more powerful computer for himself to edit videos.

So I have the book done but can’t publish it.

Julie says, “As long as you are not doing anything, why don’t you try to fix a section of our stone wall?” She thinks the crumbled stone on the driveway give buyers a bad first impression of our house. I haven’t really wanted to do it because 1) I don’t know shit about rock work, and 2) big rocks are frickin heavy.

But there really wasn’t anything else I was doing. (In Julie’s universe she thinks she crashed my computer so I would fix the wall.)

So I ripped out the wall bitchin’ and moanin’ the whole way. As I was putting it back together I began to see how the guy ahead of me had built the wall. When it was done, I had repaired the worst 5 foot section of the wall. And it looked so good you couldn’t tell there was ever a problem. So now, I have no excuse not to finish the wall before a new buyer comes to look at the house next weekend.

I couldn’t do this if I had to do all the follow-up stuff involved with putting out a book and running a website. But when I’m done with the wall, the book is already done and waiting and I will have the computer to publish it.

If I could have to have planned this, do you think I could have come up with crashing my computer half-way through my book as a means to get everything I’m working towards? Only the Universe could have scripted this.

If it feels better to you, the people on my mailing list will be getting the Life Surfer’s Law of Attraction Handbook ahead of pack, so to speak. I’ll be offering it to people who were reading my old blog a few days after that, along with announcing it in the FB Chat. Just saying if you want to be among the first to get it, the form is in the upper right of this page. It’s possible that this might be a good idea for some of you.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

Dumping the Easy-peasy

If you’ve been following this blog you might notice that I am feeling my way around a bit to get my bearings. Last night I decided that I would remove the words “Easy-peasy” from my blog header. Law of Attraction may be a lot of things, but easy-peasy is not my experience. It sounds good to in a marketing sense, but it dishonors those of you who have had chosen a rough life so that you could become conscious creators.

To be fair to myself, I felt like I had “arrived.” Things were going my way on all fronts—albeit with a glitch here and there. Contrast is to be expected. I had made friends with contrast and had developed my own system of allowing the emotions to flow through me so the contrasting thoughts evolve away.

However, last week I encountered a problem. It felt better to sell my old hobby stuff: fishing boat, weight equipment, completion cowboy guns, and model railroad stuff. I have not done any of those hobbies for years, except the weight lifting, and If I don’t have to move that stuff and find space for them in a new home, it will be a lot easier. Besides money from the sales would fund my move if I so chose.

But I found that it was an incredibility difficult task to start. I encountered a wall of resistance that was out of proportion to the task. I had images of my mother making me clean my room, where it would take all day, with every toy put away taking an incredible amount of will power to accomplish. The feeling I should do the task brought up these feelings.

I knew that guilt was associated with the basement task, as other projects I had this year had the same tenor. I noticed then that I felt guilty if I didn’t do the project, and guilty while I was doing it for fear I was not doing it well enough. It was a lose-lose situation.

My non-physical mentor, Paul, suggested that I go into the basement, stand in the center, and then just feel around and do whatever task felt better. I couldn’t even go into the basement. I found things to do that felt like relief and conveniently kept me out of the basement. That was five days ago.

Three days ago, having avoided the dungeon for two days, I was in the netherworld between resting and sleep when the contrast became clear. Because I had been emotionally abandoned as a kid, I felt I had to do anything I could so my mother would feel better, and I lived in perpetual guilt that I was not doing enough. In her passive aggressive way, she would use guilt to manipulate me. This guilt-trip threw salt on my already guilt-ridden wounds and I got angry. This in turn made me feel guilty for being angry at my mom and the emotions spiraled out of control until I was paralyzed.

All of this was subsurface. What I experienced was just the paralysis. So, with this revelation, I was able to use my contrast technique and most of the stuff evolved away.

But I still stayed away from the basement. Yesterday, after 4 days of avoiding the dungeon, in a similar state of semi-sleep, I found that there were dozens of emotions, unrelated to each other bound up like a collection of yarn scraps clamoring to be released. I literally thought, “Calm down. I’ll get to all of you.” And one-by-one I cleared them. It took more than two hours never spending more than a minute or two on a single one.

Today, I went into the basement and there was no emotional charge. I took the words “Easy-peasy” off my header. There was nothing easy about any this.

I’ve reinstated the Ask Chip page. I invite you to take advantage of the opportunity to ask a tough question, especially if you are in a bad-feeling place. I’ll keep your identity hidden if I answer your question in my blog.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann

Button, Button, Goose

Last night I got into a conversation about being true to your spiritual gifts rather than buttonholing yourself to what you think you should be doing. I was using my own life as an example because, well, I know it better than most. I pointed out how even though I was successful, even good at being a healer, it was ultimately unfulfilling. Coaching followed the same pattern.

Each of us has a unique combination of spiritual gifts. We are builders, teachers, healers, leaders, enablers, organizers, metaphysicians, creators and smart asses. We usually excel at 2-3 of these gifts. No one is like anyone else.

What tickles my spiritual goose is writing, mentoring and making people blow coffee on their keyboards.

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I excel at understanding the nature of things. When I was a businessman I could walk into any enterprise and glean how it operated and where the profit came from. It was second nature. I did the same thing as a healer. I understood the metaphysics of how and why a person became sick and was able to convey that information back to the client.

So my strengths are metaphysics and teaching. I like nothing better than to sit and ponder the workings of the Universe. And I do–so much so that I find that I have very few people whom I can talk to that share my passion. I share through writing. My abilities to communicate allow me to create metaphors to explain the virtually unexplainable. If I can make my writing funny so much the better.

Master Channel, Frank Butterfield, once called me an unconscious channel. I’m pretty sure he meant it in a good way, but as long as I can remember, when I think or talk about a subject, it is as if I download information from the Universe. A person I met in a jacuzzi called this claircognizance. I’ve never heard that term before. I’m not even sure it is in the spelling ballpark.

When I write, I also tap into this information source and it in turn, feeds my metaphysical jones. In other words, my job is doing what feels good to me. I laugh out loud when I write. Doing what you love and getting what you want by doing so is a key feature to Life Surfing.

Another question that came out of this conversation was: What is the difference between being a teacher, a coach, and a mentor? On the surface they seem very similar. A teacher imparts knowledge, a coach draws out person’s strategy and creates accountability, and a mentor demonstrates through example and helps the client follow a similar path. Mentoring is the best fit for me for one-on-one work—and I still get to enjoy the high of creating the spiritual space involved in coaching and healing.

Spiritual skills are those skills that seem so normal that you just assume that everyone does these things. It was through trial and error that I figured out that using my innate abilities was not only the most enjoyable way to live, but the most productive as well.

So… What are your spiritual skills and how do you use them to enjoy your experience?

In case you haven’t noticed, I created a Facebook chat group so you could talk about these blog posts behind my back. If you want to join go there and ask.

Chip

(c)2013 Chip Engelmann